I figure
If I write about it now before today really starts I won’t think about it as much today but I’d be lying to myself . It makes 6 years today my grandmother passed away and I’ve fathomed it after the first 4 years but the 6th just means it’s settling it . I miss her . I miss how I used to just sit and BE with her . Walk in and see her sitting by the stove in her nightgown on her lil chair making coffee . The snacks in her kitchen . Her carpet . using her computer for the internet and her warning me I was going to get kidnapped and raped if I went into chat rooms . Her telling me that having nice things is nice but if somebody asks me for it with a gun give it to them because it is replaceable but I am NOT. Her telling me I was smart and would make an exceptional lawyer . Her telling me things would be okay . Her giving me any and everything I ever asked of her . Her food . Her smell of Chanel perfume. Her instilling Christ within me and forcing me sometimes to go to her church( although I would actually always feel good afterwards about having gone ). Her style. Her strength . Her words choice of words , her humor and of course Her voice . I’d sell salt to a slug to see her and hug her again . A few days prior her passing she was sick with a cold , I asked to come see her , I wanted to tell her about ring day and my new first ever REAL high school boyfriend , and just BE with her . She begged me politely not to come because she didn’t want me to get sick . I wish I would’ve went to see her one last time but it wasn’t like me to go against my grandmother’s wishes . I miss her with every fiber in my being . When she died , I did too . Or at least my faith and partially my happiness . I was mad at God for a while but I realize she is resting , peacefully . But it is I who is not as it is 3:20 am thinking of her. I love you Mimi . Continue to watch over your clan , I miss you immensely , my best friend , my heart , my grandma. 10.14.09
You ever
Fucked so much in one day and then be like damn I don’t need to fuck again for like a week 😓😩😅?
Please look after your friends. Make sure they are well and okay. Sometimes they are going through things that are really heavy. They may not say but they are. Please love them and take care of them.
17
My lil brother turns 17 today , almost as good as 18. Must suck to have a bday so late in the year. But I feel old as shit. He is my friend now . Not a tattle tale as younger siblings are when they are annoying . We understand each other , I have always loved him . I want nothing but the best for him . As a young black man I pray he is safe in the streets . But he is intelligent and I know he will find his own way 💙
Behaved myself tonight . Lord knows I had the chance to bite that Apple of temptation 🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚🌚
"Your my right hand ,
Your my go to .
Told me everything about you ,
And that’s a bold move ."
- Drake
(via uptownsixers)
